Now I dunno what am I doing? What I wanted I just want to sleep n do't want think anything that happen for me... . I really tried, now I feel I very alone. I really start to miss my parents again. Last time when I wake up n came out from my room, I always see my parents. However, now all the time when I wake up I never see what I saw before. I always alone in my room here. Fucking feeling very difficult to stand. I hope I can back soon.... .